Awareness of self - a journey that triggered troubles processing simple mathematical equations, hence for survival a pathway had to be discovered or forged in to identity.

I opened up to self, self observing starting with breath, to my needs and my feelings, and my expressions thus exposed my emotional states. I confronted threats that would alter my state of being.

Actions stood outside Moral, ethical codes.  Awareness bought in reactions, reactions that needed to be within the social codes of conduct, I hence needed a premise, a premise that would see contradictions in my reactions. A purpose here I understood helped, it created a hunger interacting with actions effectively. 

Anticipation I understood had a frequency. It was sound, it had form, it had shape and it had to be created by me and that needed a pulse. The pulse i.e. I to create anticipation it had to seek. 

To seek would build intents.  The intents forge identity through productivity.

Intents help learning and in developing of skills.
The genetics could build sustain and discard emotions.