no avenues of reality

far far AWAY from the reality of what is
a relishing emotion
makes me experience emotions
changing me to a
fearful identity

The identity now
far far away from what "Iam" actually am
either it is the reason of conquest
that puts me in this strange position
may be something pushes me in to this war
may be winning gives a new high

Seed sown somewhere to separate first
then spend a lifetime to
connect with consciousness around ;
ideas thoughts and feelings
get importance building a neuron net
in the mirror of memory
the seed grows to "I" ness

the thought process then questions this "I"ness
rage happens
fear grips
seeing and remembering always in conflict
tearing away the peace
and bringing conflicts on daily basis

will acceptance helps
NO
does thought ever matter
NO

why was thought made so real?
who gave it a permission to loose time and space?

this is not an evolutionary life.

period